so so so so so so much.
with a burning passion of a thousand suns. -headdesk-
amen.
so so so so so so much.
with a burning passion of a thousand suns. -headdesk-
amen.
my english teacher looks exactly like shaun white.
thanks a bunch.
{ via breeology }
(via gotwisdom)
you have no idea how much i fucking laughed.
no i FUCKING deeeeeeeeeeeeeea !
today, my mother told me
she hasnt found a reason to be proud of me
for the past six years,
not since that special award in the fourth grade.
she told me after this year,
she isnt gonna care for me anymore,
” because well, why should i ? “
ive disappointed her too many times.
& she pointed out that i dont even
look like her, so why play the role
as her daughter anymore?
then she told me she doesnt think
im a virgin anymore with a straight face.
she proceeded to tell me
shes giving back my father
the wedding ring he got her
seventeen years ago, as she took it off.
& shes gonna sign divorce papers tomorrow.
she also told me its my fault,
since dad was looking through
my wallet { yeah i know, invasion }
for some money for coffee,
& found something he
wasnt suppose to find,
& was completely pissed off
about this, so hes been outta the
house for the past week from
1OAM to 5PM.
mother said shes divorcing
him because he doesnt help out
around the house & he doesnt work.
& im the same as him, so we
are both useless to her.
she didnt cook today,
im dead hungry.
yeah, i know theres noodles,
but something about cancer
& wax in those noodles have got
me all sick of them.
i cant cry about this,
for some reason i just cant.
then i thought of suicide,
since i am indeed, the source of
the problem, & might as well anyways.
& if my parents do get a divorce,
i dont want to live with my mother,
since she doesnt want me,
or with my father, who is pissed off anyways,
so what am i suppose to do now?
shall i put on my best face
& walk through my days
like im playing the kateta charade?
annie, if you are reading this,
i didnt wanna worry you
by telling you this.
whatever the fuck happens,
i love you, sincerely & truthfully.
i overachieved & did all of my homework,
which kinda helped forget it for a while,
but then i walked past the ring mom left
beside dads cellphone, & came rushing
back ten times fold.
& yes, i do, in fact, think im pathetic, also.